“Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.”-1 Thessalonians 5:11*
It has been a while, my friends. I didn’t plan on taking a writing hiatus, it happened. You know what?
I needed it.
Life got really busy with family and I have so enjoyed it. There were laughs, hugs, tears, and arguments, but for a small stretch of time, I had all my kiddos under one roof (and two granddaughters, a niece, and a third dog). It was way overdue and I wanted to embrace this precious time and make memories.
But somewhere along the way, I realized I had not been writing and it appeared no one else noticed my absence either. Which got me to thinking, am I supposed to be writing? Is this truly what God has called me to do?
The answer is I don’t know.
When I started this writing venture it was to talk about my grief journey. I have covered this topic a lot; maybe even beating it into the ground. Now I wonder, do I have more to give other than relating to grief?
I hope so, but am not sure what it exactly looks like. I am also not sure if I have it in me.
One thing I do know is I am not giving up, yet.
I have invariably been a person who likes to see the glass as half full, find the silver lining, and celebrate the small victories. I have been an encourager, champion, and cheerleader for others. I like to give rather than receive, and I consistently root for the underdog. Now, I need some of this and I actually don’t know how to go about focusing on me.
It is scary and makes me feel vulnerable. Not my strong suit.
So, I have been reading other people’s blogs, books, and articles. Trying to let go of my pity party and look for a spark, a light, to inspire me not to give up and keep writing. I am praying about it and trying to hear God in all this mess.
Sometimes the silence is also the answer.
I share this because perhaps you too have been discouraged at some aspect in life. I find the best way to get out of the funk is to know I am not alone. There are others who struggle and find their way up and out. I know I will too.
I believe this is what God wants for all of us. To be there for one another, boosting and lifting up, not fighting and tearing down. Most of the time I love to encourage others, now I am the one seeking encouragement.
It will take patience, prayer, and peace. I need to quiet my mind and heart so I can receive it all. Help a sista out and pray for me.
*The Holy Bible, New International Version Copyright 1973, 1978, 1984 by International Bible Society